2014

    Out of all the insanity in my life, I know there lies a greater purpose. I know I was put on this planet for some reason. I don't know if anyone else thinks about things like this, but two days ago after dropping off some packages at USPS I was at a stop sign, waiting for a break in traffic to turn.  I suddenly felt a jolt, and realized the truck behind me had hit me. I couldn't even be angry if I tried. In fact, I laughed. Had I not spent that extra 5 minutes washing the dishes, or that extra 10 minutes to paint my nails, would I even be in this situation? It's crazy to think about how every single thing you do during your day affects you life.
 
    But back to my point, it's up to us to decide to let things effect us. Life gets hard, and when it does it won't just be like a small slap in the face from life telling you to wake up, it will hit you like a wall of bricks all at once, and just when you think you've finally stabilized yourself, it will hit you again. Through all that though, we need to find reasons to smile and laugh. Granted, there will be days you will want to cry, and by god you cry and you cry long and hard. Don't let anyone ever tell you it's not okay to cry, or that it is a sign of weakness. It's not.

     You're going to have doors slammed in your face, often doors you didn't realize were there until it's too late. You're going to read things and see things that feel like a kick to the gut. You're going to hear words from people you love that will convince you your heart no longer beats, but trust me it will continue to.

     Above all that, however, you're going to find doors open for you that you never realized were there. You're going to read things and see things that put butterflies in your stomach. You're going to hear words from people you love that will convince you your heart can actually skip a beat. You're going to find greatness, it just takes time.

    One day you may miss your bus, take a wrong turn, walk into the wrong class, be late to work, be stuck in traffic, break up with someone you love. Just think to yourself, that happened for a reason, You never know why things go the way they do at that moment, but trust in the fact that there is something beautiful brewing there.

    Give it some time.